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22 weeks and a small success

I had a very exciting weigh in this week! For the first time in a while, I gained less than a pound, which is appropriate for being pregnant. Such a relief. Now I just need to keep it up and stay focused. 
I went running again today for the first time since last Monday (yeah, it was a crappy week) so I finished W2D1 and it felt very doable. Glad that it doesn’t feel too hard or else I wouldn’t keep with it. Like Ive said a million times, the short duration of the workout also makes it feel less dreadful, since I know it won’t take long and I can just kinda get it over with. 

Felix and I are not very photogenic sometimes buuuut this is what our life looks like lol. 

Little baby boy in my belly is the size of spaghetti squash… Whatever that is. 😂


21 weeks preggers

Got my third week one workout done 😀

I know I should have done it last week but I’m so sick of beating myself up that I don’t even care. I got a long walk in at the river yesterday with the fam which prob burned as many calories. 

Also got myself a nice sunburn. 

Today I’m 21 weeks pregnant, which means I’m over half way done! The baby is the size of a banana. 

The app is kinda funny because the fruits and veggies they use don’t really seem proportional. Regardless, it’s a fun way to track my progress and I like holding up the fruit to my belly to imagine. 

Being accountable 

… Even when I don’t want to be!I ran twice this week, not three times like I was hoping. But, yesterday we got a couple walks in and today we will get a long walk in with my family so I’m cutting myself some slack. 

I have already gained nearly 30 lbs this pregnancy which is totally unacceptable. I am having a hard time keeping my eating on track, mostly because of my lack of focus. I’m finding myself totally starving, so I wind up over eating. I need to snack more and binge less. That is my goal this week!

Felix is enjoying the fresh air

Small goals

So, I have continued being excited about the gym, but yesterday I forgot my gym bag when I went to work so I didn’t go. I was off Monday so I didn’t go. So here it is, Wednesday, and I was excited to go but my schedule was screwy and I ate a late lunch. 

So, when I got to the gym, I said all I need to do is run 20 minutes on the treadmill and do some lifting so I didn’t get sick or overdo it.  

 The last 2 minutes were the cooldown so I hit my goal and just walked a bit to get my heart rate back down. I switched between 5 mph for 1 minute and 4 mph for 90 seconds for the second ten minutes. I could have kept going but I told myself I only had to do 20 minutes and I’ve been afraid that I wouldn’t keep the motivation if I keep going over my goal because I’ll feel guilty to fall short. So, today was a good day to take it easy after a big lunch. Tomorrow, though, more cardio!

Here’s a picture of my love bug to end the day. 😊

Week 5 weigh in

This is my 5th weigh in this year, but just for fun, I’m also going to record how many weeks pregnant I am in my weigh in posts because I think it will help make sense when I am growing. Plus it will help me keep an eye on how much I should really be gaining (which is 0 right now lol). 

This week I am 10 weeks pregnant! Only two more weeks and we will be done with the first trimester and fear of miscarriage will significantly decrease. 😀

So this morning I weighed myself like 3 times and they were all different. This one was the highest weight, which I figured is probably most accurate. I am down 1.4 lbs supposedly, which is great! This week I was more nauseated at dinner time and didn’t eat after like 4 pm on several days. One night we even went out to get Mexican food, which I had been looking forward to all day, and by the time we got there I was totally nauseated I just couldn’t do it! I took almost all of it home and ate it for lunch the next day (yesterday).  

It feels really good to see that ticker going downward again. Obviously I will need to lose weight slowly or not at all these next several months, but because I know I’m overweight, I’m okay with working out and losing body fat while pregnant. If I gain no weight the whole time, that would be cool.  Buuuut I’m not sure that’s realistic lol. 

To be honest, I only worked out once this week, and luckily for me it was on the most opportune day (right before weigh in day 😉). I am going to the gym after I put in a couple hours at the office today too so that should be very good. So far, like I said, I really like planet fitness. I’m excited to have more time there today so I can really try some of the weight machines and get myself sore before the weekend!

Felix likes it when I work out cuz I’m more energetic and patient at home. 

Jared is taking me on a valentines date this weekend that should be pretty fun. My parents offered to watch Felix so this will be our first non-baby date in MONTHS. Possibly since July for beer fest in Pittsburgh. That is a long ass time to not get a chance to love on each other. Wish I could pair it with a couple drinks but I’ll just have to have a tasty dessert instead (for the baby!). 🍰🍮

Welcome to the planet

You’ll never guess what I did this week. I signed up for planet fitness.   

I feel weird joining a gym because I’m really not a gym person. BUT I accepted that it is just too damn cold for me to find any motivation outside, so I spent money with hopes that it would help keep me accountable and excited to work out. And it kinda worked so far. 

Tonight after work I ran 2 miles, despite having a cold and being kinda worn out all week. The run really helped and I am excited to go back and do some weight training. I think that will be a new direction to go while I’m pregnant so I don’t dread the gym since it’ll only be some cardio and some weights, not soooo muuuuuch cardio. Lol. 

Week 3 weigh-in

I forgot to take a picture this morning, but I weighed in at .4 lbs higher this week than last week. Considering I have been really slacking, that is not as big of a shocker as I was expecting. IMG_8621

I did successfully complete a run yesterday before I picked up Felix. I told myself I only had to go 20 minutes, and I actually ended up going 25, which is acceptable to me. About halfway through I got a side stitch that was pretty annoying, but overall, my legs felt good and my lungs weren’t too tight.
IMG_8622While I was running, I could tell that i was going slow, but I just didn’t care because I was glad I made it out of the house. The weird thing about running for me right now is that while I’m doing it, I really enjoy it. Yesterday for example, my timer said that I was at 10 minutes, my self-designated turn-around time, and I didn’t want to yet. I wanted to keep going until I got “just a little farther.” There were at least three separate times that I pushed myself to go to the next landmark just because I knew I could and I was feeling fine. Somehow, this knowledge of the good feeling I get from running still does not outweigh my dread. I know I’ll feel better, I know I enjoy it, I know I don’t feel like I’m going to die while I’m doing it, and yet I just DON’T WANT TO. The therapist inside me is yelling at me for my lack of insight in this matter. I said yesterday that I want to run today too, which I do… but I’m also feeling very tired and lazy and blahhh. A run would definitely help to wake me up, which I really need because I still need to clean the house for my mother-in-law’s visit this weekend. I just need to remember that running will make the whole weekend better, it will make my pregnancy feel better, and it will help me reach my goal of being in the 120’s, which I’d like to do SOMETIME in this pregnancy. My actions really need to start reflecting my thoughts. Clearly I need some CBT in my life. haaa



A whole week of no motivation

Holy hell it has been a long week. And by that I mean I spent the entire week telling myself how important it is to eat healthy and run with absolutely NO follow through. I am avoiding the self-pity, woe-is-me post by just putting it all out there – I made some crappy excuses this week and didn’t put my health first. I binged a couple (MORE THAN ONE) days this week and allowed myself to use the nausea of the first trimester to be a perfect excuse to be lazy. I met NONE of my goals. I made no attempts at meeting my goals. The best thing I did for myself this week was run on Tuesday. I counted my calories yesterday and one other day this week, but I have just not been doing a good job logging in because I don’t want to see 100 unhealthy foods and a 3,000+ number on the daily calorie intake thing.

I also gained a pound this week by bingeing and not running when I should have. Seeing the scale this morning was a bit of a wake-up call, because I’ve been feeling bloated and puffier for the last several days, which I attributed to the nausea and pregnancy (as a defense mechanism) instead of recognizing that it was the shitty food and lack of exercise doing it.

So, I’m adjusting my goals for this next week to reflect things that I REEALLLLY need to do for my pregnancy. Now, more than ever, I need to work on finding new recipes that do not make me want to vomit (because most of the stuff I’ve been eating over the last 3 months is closing my throat just at the thought of it right now), and actually make them instead of “winging it” and winding up eating crap.

So – this week’s goals: attempt at least ONE new recipe – I saw something about avocado chicken burritos that looked good – and do not eat at a restaurant Monday-Friday. On weekends, Jared and I often go out for lunch or dinner at least once so I like to give myself the freedom to go then and make acceptable decisions. The alternative to this is hitting up fast food, ordering A BUNCH of stuff, and eating in the safety of my car, without anyone there to stop me or say, “Holy fuck, are you really able to consume that much food?”

Run at least 3 times between Saturday and Friday (the next weigh in day). If I run tonight, that will not count for next week because I still need another for this week!

Do some kind of abs/legs/crossfit thing at least one other day – this can even be a quick 15 minute workout or whatever, but my back is already bothering me so I NEED to get back on the ab train. I’m sooo not meeting my January goals with abs right now.

Sometimes I feel very alone in my desire to binge. I think that I am the only one who does it or am the only one who craves a pile of crappy food. I know that this can’t be true, but at the same time, I feel bad about myself when I give in to the temptation because I feel as though so many people in the world would like to do it and just don’t. For example, plenty of people would like to stop cooking forever, but they don’t because it just isn’t something that makes sense or is economically sensible. Bingeing would be very enjoyable for some, but they don’t do it because it’s bad for their health and leads to upset feelings afterwards. To be honest, sometimes I don’t even have upset feelings afterwards… I have feelings of relief, as if I FINALLY took care of the problem so now I can go back to living. Days later I feel bad, like today for example, because I gained weight this week and I know that eating a ton of Sheetz deep-fried food is terrible for me and my baby. Yet, after I ate it, I felt no remorse. I actually felt at ease again… I took care of the “icky” feeling, which was the craving in the first place. When I think about it clinically like that, it helps me to understand why I do it and what I can get out of it. I had a really good streak going – possibly more than 3 months – but I entertained the idea of crappy food because now that I’m pregnant, I’m just going to gain the weight back anyways.

Does that have to be true? NO. Is it healthy for me to gain that weight back while pregnant? NO. Do I want to get that fat? NO. Do I want to feel crappy? NO.

And yet, those little evil voices in my head encourage it. What I need is a good run, and some healthy, DELICIOUS food. For lunch I brought leftover taco meat. It was actually really delicious the first time, so hopefully it will be satisfying today as well. Running helps to curb my cravings because I know that a good run follows a healthy meal… and when I just plan it without allowing it to be negotiable, I stick to it much better. This is difficult with my current work schedule, however, it is not impossible. I just have to DO IT.

So here is my plan for the weekend: I will run AT LEAST TWICE between today and Sunday. I’m hoping that means tonight and tomorrow, so that Sunday I can do whatever the hell I please, but that is going to depend on whether or not we go to Clarion tomorrow or not. So, we shall see.