Ever have one of those days where you just feel like you want to claw your own eyes out? Like every single thing around you is irritating? Today, I had one of those days but the things around me were literally irritating… my allergies!
The last two days my seasonal allergies are here in full swing, and it happened to be in the low 40’s last night so we actually turned the heat on. I don’t know if it’s just blowing dust all over the house or if it’s the fall allergies or what but I was just POURING snot from my nose, my eyes were watering, and my whole face was itchy. I decided to do some cleaning to keep busy and I thought it might help with the dust level in the house… which should decrease my allergies. But damn. It was worse the whole time I was cleaning, and then my vacuum was screwed up and I started taking it apart but it doesn’t come the whole way apart and then I had a category 5 meltdown. Like the size of hurricane Irma. I must have yelled the F word 75 times in about 5 minutes. It was allllll bad.
So I went outside and laid on the cold porch floor to literally cool off. The fresh air helped some too I think. I went back inside…. and sobbed on my 3 year olds lap for 5 minutes while he comforted me and told me he’s here for me and I should take some deep breaths. Obviously, he’s wise beyond his years.
Anyways, I realize life isn’t all pretty rainbows and stuff, but it was a tough morning. I don’t think I realized just how much the allergies caused me sensory irritation which led to absolute overload. I think I experienced a piece of what someone with sensory problems and/or Autism may experience on a daily basis. How terrifying and infuriating that must be for them. Quite a lesson in empathy!
In other news, I did my 3 mile “long” run, which was actually fairly hard. It may have been the energy wasted in my meltdown or just my adjusting to lower calories, or something else. No matter what, it’s done, and I’m glad.
Friends are coming over tonight so I’m sure there will be a fair amount of booze and food. So far I’ve only eaten 450 calories but I’m going to need something else before we grab dinner with them. Stayed under 2,000 calories again yesterday, even including Mexican for dinner! Feels good to be moving a direction besides backwards right now.
Check out this tasty breakfast- fajita meat on English muffin covered in cheese. Only 220 calories!